UNFAITHFUL WIFE: Sometimes it feels like every day is a struggle against myself. Every natural reaction I have is wrong. It’s too selfish or to anxious or too something.
This isn’t just since the affair, although it has been accentuated since then. On some level, though, it feels like this has been going on my whole life.
Sometimes I succeed. Sometimes I fail, but every time is a struggle.
And that gets exhausting.
I turned 30 last week.
Look, I’m not going to kill myself so don’t get your panties in a wad, but I kind of wouldn’t mind if I didn’t make it to 31.
Thirty to sixty more years of life, I get tired just thinking about it.